Poetrena's Diary

Bandung, 16 Mei 2013

I love when you finally found your love anymore, I hope I can be your last love eternally.

I love you Dany, be my first and last.
Jangan pergi, aku ga mau kehilangan kamu. Aku sayang kamu,
Dany Budiman Barnas

Bandung, 11 Mei 2013

Halo, I’m going to tell u what am I feeling today :(
Aku ga tau kenapa, dan gatau apa yang salah pada diri aku. Aku baru sekarang ngerasa sebodoh ini. Baru sekarang ada yg ngebego-begoin aku sampai aku jadi bener-bener bego sebego-begonya. Baru sekarang aaku bener-bener ngerasa game berguna, kerjaan aku nangis, Dan begitu lemah. Padahal aku bukan orang yang selemah itu, aku tahu!

Posisi aku saat ini serba susah, entah kenapa. Nilai akademis turun, itu artinya apa? Aku ga bertanggung jawab sama diri aku sendiri semester ini. Yg aku pikirin ga cuma satu, banyak. Tapi ga puguh. Udah cukup poet, kamu udah terlalu jauh ngikutin apa kata orang.

Sekarang jadi diri kamu! Stop jadi orang lain, poet!

While you told me that last night, I don’t know how much you love me then.

Bandung, May 4 2013

I want you to be my strength for sure, D :)

Hello, today I’m going to tell someone out there who steal my heart from few month ago, his name is Dany. You know, he’s amazing just the way he is. He’s different then another men I ever know. He thought me much, firstly about politic and philosophy. You know, before I know him, I was politic and philosophical’s haters, but now I’m trying to learn that annoying things hahahaha :D

First time I met him, he was asking me “do you have any boy-friend?” But I didn’t answer. So, the next question he asked me is “do you love a guy who always pray?” And I said “sure that”, afterward he went home with his motorcycle. That moment was the beginning of all.

Day by day many things happen, from the committee of National Musyawarah of IMIKI (Indonesia’s Communication Student Association) we’ve first annoying trouble there, I won’t tell u here hahaha :D So, afterward comes the election of new leader of Faculty Student’s Executive and I was one of the candidate. He was the leader of my team, and he won it, love you :*

From that things we near, and the new year of 2013 came, and we told our feeling till we know each other. He call it ‘Democratic Process’ and he told I won him at all, for me it’s confusing but so romantic. He did something which nobody ever think. Absent-mindedly want you!

He often asked me ‘why should you love me? I don’t wanna have a blind love from you’, when I couldn’t answer him, he don’t want me to be his love till the end of his day. He want me to love him rationally, love him with reason, not blind. Since that day, I realize that he always teach me rightly,
Everything he said slowly educating me, I never heard a lesson so sweet :)

Till today, I always love him without why. Because he’s the only one reason why I should love him without why.
I love you forever and always, my Dany Budiman Barnas.